Kirstie Sivapalan
Today I am angry, not just mildly displeased or irked but gut wrenchingly, blood boilingly, fist clenchingly, teeth grindingly, word spittingly, ear steaminlgy angry and try having all of those things going on whilst your trying to be articulate. So do I have 5 minutes of your time? Will you indulge this tantrum and […] via… Continue reading Reblog: From a fellow M.E warrior. Listen to her roar!
"The place where words don't work" This powerful line is one of many exquisite literary morsels that I uncovered in Donna Tartt's novel The Goldfinch. This particular phrase, a good hundred pages in, was one I particularly savoured, even with its ironic bitter aftertaste. A place where words don't work. Why would someone who works… Continue reading The place where words don’t work
Today has felt like one of the "old days" as I am tired. Almost jet-lag like tired. Rather than push through my intuition told me to rest today today. For the shop day off to be my day off too. Well...ish. Rather than the old days where I've either been tired from HR work or… Continue reading Something old…
I saw my M.E friend today. Not just saw but witnessed her in her magnificent glory as she said "I do" sparkling in gold from the inside and out. Glowing from growing a child, a long held dream, and shining with love for her new husband. We had the briefest but a poignant moment… Continue reading Golden
"They" said running a shop would be hard work, this I knew and was ready for but like a lot of things attempted for the first time not something you can completely prepare for either on an emotional or practical level. And it is, at times, tough going. Sometimes the sheer volume of tasks takes… Continue reading Back to normal
Today has been the first day since before opening the shop that I've had one of those truly "veg out" days. A pyjama wearing, box-set watching, sofa snuggling day. Just me and the Aquarian. No thoughts, no to do lists, no poignant questions, just "lying like broccoli" enjoying our time together. (Can't remember where that… Continue reading Snuggled
Back home now after a jampacked weekend with family. What a lovely time it was too although now I feel a bit jetlagged from the various mostly exertive (but fun!) activities. This used to be a scary moment for me. But this time not so. By now i'd be experiencing anxiety about overdoing it, fretting… Continue reading Kind of tired
I had a boogie last night. Doesn't sound particularly postworthy but for me it's what a dear friend and amazing coach calls a "shining goal". Dancing has always played a huge role in my life as a symbol of both freedom and merging. Not that I am particularly accomplished, or trained, just, erm...enthusiastic. Starting on… Continue reading The Gratitude Dance
More of the same Little Capricorn today. More work on my crystal shopping list and two further Astro-Rocks sessions. It's all building nicely. And the welcome return of physcial energy. Not that I went out running or anything dramatic. More a feeling of strength and the ability to do some chores. I have been here… Continue reading A little more
Back in to my new normal routine today. That is, consciously creating what I want to do and when I want to do it. Exploring the possibilities for future work and running through my task list for manifesting the shop space. And as I wrote that I took a deep breath and let out a… Continue reading Neutral awareness
Writing and M.E. 